Dedication

i want to say goodbye to that part of me that loves more him than just a friend and i keep on saying that like a prayer.

maybe i said it because i want to validate my feelings.i want him to feel it too.

maybe i have said it so
many times because i believe in the law of attraction. if i say it out loud then the universe will hear me. and i will attract the outcome of that very statement and every thing will fall under that order, that frequency that i wish to latch on to now.

maybe i said that so many times so my heart can keep up with my head. yes, i can be a big cliche yet use it because it is the truth no matter what time of day.

i have said it so many times because i want to recognize that he doesn't love and that i am alone. i get it however, i am not fine with that at all.

perhaps i will miss him.him as the only kind of love i have longed of having ever in my adult life. it can also be because there lies a vacuum in my heart which I never want to happen.

this is the first time that i feel tired. i am tired of chasing after the karls of this world.i just want to have a fresh start and carry on with a vacant heart until things look up or i can resume things with karl as friends. i will truly miss him with every bit of my being or that kind love that i have wanted for myself for so long.

but for now,everything is up to God.if he wills that we end up together,then i am totally up for it. if not,then i am making the right decision.:-)