The PILOT

In this video the character of Winona Ryder, Susanna, wakes up on the night before she gets discharged from an asylum. Susanna realizes that her journal is gone and her cat, Ruby. She gets up to search but soon heard some noises coming from the basement where she and her friends usually hang out. Susanna follows the voices she has been hearing. It is her friend, Lisa, played by Angelina Jolie. Lisa is reading Susanna's journal in the cold and poorly-lit basement and she has an audience, Polly and Georgina.

Lisa (reading Susanna's journal): Lisa's eyes once so magnetic now just look empty.


Susanna: Lisa, that is mine!

Lisa: Georgina, lies only to people who keep her here. Sometimes I think she wants to live in Oz forever. How perceptive...

Georgina (lashing out to Susanna): You better erase it! My father is the head of the CIA and he can have you dead in minutes!

Lisa: In this world looks are everything. Sometimes I think Polly's sweetness and purity aren't genuine at all but a desperate attempt to make it easier at us to look at her. So nice to pass judgment on us now that you're cured.

Susanna: What the fuck are you doing Lisa?

Lisa: I'm trying to play the villain, baby. Just like what you want. Just trying to give you everything you want.

Susanna: No, you're not.

Lisa: You want your file? I gave you your file. You wanted out? I got you out! You needed money, I found you some! I fucking insisted to tell you the truth I didn't fucking write it in a fucking book. I told it to your face!

For two fucking minutes, I felt like I was Susanna.

There are situations when life pushes you to the brink of your sanity and you write down and express what it is that you feel and you cross your fingers that for a mere moment releasing these words will bring you back to your "normal" self. Now, you can only wish these thoughts will remain private. But when you find out that these musings will be used and misinterpreted as something that they are not, in the end these will only contribute to the magnitude of bleak-osity going on in your life.

Truth is, I have had the same experience with Susanna. The thought is not exactly dark in nature. It is in fact humorous, of course, at the expense of others. Then again, it is not purposely conceived to offend anyone. However, some people has taken that side. And since they have chosen to see it that way, I have made it a point to apologize To what extent do they want me to apologize is still unknown. To me though, I am done with it.

If this story finds them, I want to tell them that I had a ball making and writing that joke but more importantly, I want them to know how sorry I am if they ever feel maligned by it.

That is a just thought. It is actually private and it is mine.