I always have a problem with goodbyes. They give a certain discomfort to my mind and body so unexplainable; thinking of how to describe it just makes me want to sleep it off. But in life certain things are very certain to happen and that includes goodbyes.
Fact is, this year alone a lot of goodbyes have been said by me. I have said goodbye to an old job that has been a comfort zone to me, good or bad. Some clothes that I have been seen in and have definitely served me good in the style department. Friends who find a career outside the country or friends just moving on to other priorities like marriage, higher education and all those in between. And it is just difficult.
Letting go has never been my cup of tea much less my expertise. I like the feeling of sticking to something that is secure, dependable, comforting and familiar. I will never choose for things that will leave me smoking every thirty minutes out of stress and discomfort. That is just not me. Maybe.
Similarly, I am also drawn to change. If it is something extraordinarily new and exciting, I go after it. Heck, some of my friends even tell me that they know about new things from me be it in music, style, events, places I can very well tell if it is something worth knowing.
So now I don’t know. I am 28 or I will be in a matter of weeks. I am off to a fresh start but for some reason I cannot let go of some things in my life that belong to my past like the comfort of an old job or that giddy feeling from an infatuation. It is hard to bid them farewell but they are over.
I may never be able to master how to mutter a good bye without twitching or imploding but this I can say – goodbyes are in order so changes can take place. This is the way God created certain things in life. How can He give me more fruits if I am still holding on to the rotten ones? Yeah, there is a phrase in the bible that says the same but ... You get what I’m saying, right?
